Lifeless Numbers(unfinished??)

Who am I killing this life inside me?

or breaking the monster clawing at the edge..

all that i have done to numb the aching

has pushed us farther towards the ledge

  oh the numbers i play with

  games of hide and seek

  just leave me all too breathless

  and oh so weak…

screams dance on the nerves inside my brain

bruising connections and breaking the beat

they make me fidget like i’m going insane

i can’t hold still,too dizzy from the heat